The January Review
So I’m in Penang right now, taking stock of the past 31 days of the year. Such a whirlwind. New life, new resolutions, new clothes, new saxophone, new outlook, new diet, new fats, new friends.
Strengthening my will to exercise is so difficult. Strengthening my will to eat less, even more so. But I’ve come to a point now where I can actually leave food on my plate and not feel as guilty as I used to. In fact, I think I feel even guiltier when I finish all of my food. There’s this lump in my throat which won’t go away when I eat half of it. And so I try to stop eating if I can. Also, I don’t feel like eating as much sugar as I used to. Admittedly, there have been 2 or 3 emo binges after particularly severe fights. But yes, so far so good. My jeans are looser. 
But I feel fatter. How can that possibly be? I don’t even feel like buying clothes anymore because I know my fat body won’t do them any justice whatsoever. I have no idea whether this is a good thing.
Writing is therapeutic. And reading, even more so. Here’s to an even better February! 
One Little Word
The one little word that’s helping me stay on track this year?
Alignment.
The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Aligning my spirit and my body. Listening to what it’s saying. Aligning myself to God’s desires, God’s purposes, God’s heart. That they may become my desires, my purposes, and hopefully, my heart.
Aligning myself to ways higher than my own.
yeemun’s reminder list of things she could do alone in her room.
Read a book.
Watch the Big Bang Theory.
Facial & manicure & pedicure time.
Go jogging.
Swim a few laps.
Clean messy room.
Sax practice.
Take a nap.
Throw away food.
Cook some food.
Email old friends.
Write or journal.
Talk to God.
Listen to God.
Read German aloud.
Call Mom.
Evaluate wardrobe.
Do 30-Day Shred.
Strategise.
Stone.
yeemun’s goals for jan 11 week 2
Swim thrice.
Jog 5 times (4km).
Read 2 German articles.
Eat an apple for dinner 5 times.
Finish spring cleaning and organising random junk in my room.
Declutter. Declutter. Declutter.
yeemun falls in love.
When I was younger, he seemed completely, utterly, unattainable. I dreamed and hoped and wished that someday he’d be mine.
Mellow, flexible, deep, rich. So sexy.
I’m so glad we found each other.
<3
yeemun ate too much again.
I don’t know why I’m being so public about this. But here it goes.
Breakfast:
500 ml warm water
Lunch:
princess cake
5 meatballs
14 fries
a handful of longbeans
a nibble of dark chocolate daim cake
350 ml water
Tea:
1 malteser
200 ml water
Dinner:
90 cal cherry & chocolate bar
500 ml warm water
yeemun wants a beanbag.
This is pure aweseomeness. Pure awesomeness. Where can I get one?
Awesomeness <3
yeemun’s goals for jan 11 week 1
Jog 40 mins twice.
Read 5 German articles.
Spring clean room. Completely.
Eat an apple for dinner 3 times.
Drink 1.5 litres of water each day.
I can do this.
yeemun is a fishball.
You know how fishballs are round, wrinkly, greyish objects made of meat and other unidentifiable substances?
Yeah. That’s me.
And so I start the year 12kg heavier than my ideal weight, with dreams of weight loss on my mind.
